Dear Pepi

This week, I mourn the loss of the fur being who supported me through my first sixteen years of adult life.

The end came sooner than expected, and I am unspeakably sad.

But Pepi now dreams of a world without pain, of eternal golden orbs and endless grassy meadows…

He is at peace.

Dear Pepi RIP

1 June 1996 – 26 September 2012


Out of respect for Pepi, there will be no new posts until further notice.

Instead, please visit the boy with a hat.

While you’re there, download his free eBook, 50 Tales.

They are beautiful, whimsical, sometimes naughty, often funny little vignettes of life, and are sure to make you glad to be alive.


  1. says

    Dear Alarna Rose,
    It hurts so much to lose those precious beings who love us unconditionally.
    I’m so sad for you, and know from my own grief how much you must be hurting, I wish I could comfort you.
    Whenever one of our dogs died, we received a message from them, with one, the scent of lavender which filled the house, and then we realised we had sent lavender with him into the vet, So I feel that their loving consciousness stays with you, and their love is never ending. Love doesn’t disappear. And it’s still so hard not to see their darling faces..
    Bless you,bless you

    • says

      Dear Valerie,
      I’m so far unable to read your comment (let alone reply!) without weeping. Thank you so very much. You comfort me beyond measure.
      Such a beautiful message, the lavendar, and the never ending love…
      Just yesterday I was remembering the way Pepi would waggle his head and beckon me to ‘come on, already’. He was such a positive, energetic and forward thinking dog…it was like he was telling me ‘come on, I’m still here, let’s get on with it’. So, I guess that’s what I have to try and do πŸ™‚
      Much love to you, Valerie xo

      • says

        Dear, dear Alarna Rose,
        I was so relieved to see your name and find your message. I’ve been worried abut you.
        It’s still early days and I know you’ll be feeling raw – after all, for all those years you had nothing but unconditional love , and of course you miss it, but know too that it is still there. One of the hard things is feeling you haven’t got them to love, but there’s nothing that says we have to stop loving them. I still greet my darling pussy cat every time I open my computer and see her there looking at me ( My first post was Goodbye Cat)
        I’ve spent the day with a friend who’s just lost her sixteen year old cat.
        She says she feels so guilty about grieving like this , she was only a cat. I say to her , she wasn’t only a cat, she was the most precious creature in the world to you, and you to her.
        I know that’s not how you feel, you know that Pepi was a very special consciousness, and you were and are a gift to each other . I hope you’re beginning to get your balance back again. and I’m thinking of you both with love,
        Somehow I feel very close to you XXX

      • says

        Dearest Valerie,
        Thank you so so much for your comforting words. I feel strangely close to you, too – you’re a precious soul and blogging friend, and it means a great deal to read your thoughtful messages.
        I’ve been surprised what a wreck I’ve been, and to be honest, it has felt at little self-indulgent. But I know what he meant to me, and vice versa, and it just isn’t something one can move on from quickly. Thank you for giving me permission to mourn for him πŸ™‚
        A few days seem like forever in the blogging world, but not so in the real one. And Pepi, for sure, would have appreciated my switching the computer off for him. So that is what I did.
        Now that a week has passed, and I have put away his bed, I’ll be slowly coming back. And am very much looking forward to doing some reading of my favourite people πŸ˜‰
        Thank you so very much for your love and kindness xox

      • says

        You’re lovely. Yes, you’ve put away his bed… but I do tend to leave things around like their saucer or toys, and just let them go slowly, as and when I’m ready… I actually found it comforting to see little reminders of them around the place , but it may be different for you.
        You’re right about the difference in blogging time and the real time… strange…X

  2. says

    Oh no! I am terribly sorry about this. My thoughts and warm wishes are with you. Take comfort in the fact he is still with you, watching over you, still your loyal friend.

  3. says

    Alarna, I am so sorry to hear about Pepi. Yes he will be taken care of and you know he is in a good place, but let us mourn in memories of all the joy he brought you. Love to you.

  4. WordsFallFromMyEyes says

    This is sad, it really is. What a lovely post though – & photo. 16 YEARS of your life. Wow. Just bless him…

  5. says

    I am so sorry, Alarna. I know exactly what you’re going through. Losing a dog is one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do. They are so so close to our hearts, in ways humans can almost never be. I’m thinking of you ❀

    • says

      You are so right about that…there’s something in the way creatures love us that is unsurpassed. I know I didn’t deserve half the love he gave. Thank you so much for your words, and thoughts. xo

    • says

      Thanks Coleen, I am greatly comforted. Your post has also been with me a lot this week, as my routines changed suddenly and immeasurably. But, thankfully, I had time to appreciate each moment before he left…

  6. lynnkelleyauthor says

    Oh, Alarna, I’m so, so sorry. I know how dear and special Pepi was to you, the loyalist of friends. I’m so glad you wrote the book about Pepi, and he will live on and many others will fall in love with Pepi, too. So sad. Sending huge hugs to you. Yes, take some time off to mourn and publish your book. I’m looking forward to it even more than I already was. XO

    • says

      I really appreciate your thoughts and hugs, Lynn πŸ™‚
      Pepi was special, and loyal, and full of so much joy for such a small creature. As one person said to me – ‘So much personality in such a small package!’
      I look forward to sharing his joy with the world πŸ™‚

      (BTW, I see that it’s a big week for you, too! A massive congratulations, and I’ll be over to your corner soon…) xo

  7. says

    Hi Alarna,

    I’m sorry to hear that. Losing a friend like that is never easy. I’ve lost my Kona almost a year ago (she was still a kitten), and still thinking about her and her kind ways. Let’s hope they are in a better place now.

  8. says

    I am so so so so so sorry 😦 I wish I’d read this earlier. My heart goes out to you and Pepi. If you need to talk, I’m here. aw 😦

  9. says

    My dearest Alarna, I grieve Pepi today even though I did not know him then… I know you have moved to a new place and have honored him with your wonderful books with his name. Please know that Pepi is so happy as he awaits you to hold him & love him forever. xxxx I love you!!!

    • says

      My dear Rain – I’m very touched. I know that you understand the importance the little fur creature had in my life… I wish you could have met him! Thank you for all you’ve done to help me honour his memory πŸ™‚ Much love xx


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